It’s a Sunday evening and I am just finishing up a job application. I have discovered that I don’t really need the job, just the money. But I haven’t quite found that pot of gold and even though we get rainbows here, I don’t think the leprechaun’s loot would be easy to find.
I have been enjoying these last days and being able to not panic without work has been a way of life I could not have imagined but I love. I am enjoying it for now but I know the day is coming when it could all change. So, I continue to look for the elusive perfect job to avoid the panic. I suspect it’s out there. I just need to find it.
In the middle east…where I spent an entire year the weather is now back in the 90’s for heat and the weather is stuck here as if it were winter still. I really am growing tired of living in a place where everything is wet and cold all the time. I never thought I would miss the heat but I sure do now. In fact, I have a fire going in the stove and it’s about 85 inside. I am a happy warm camper…that’s in interesting word to pop up in my thinking…”camper”, as I do feel a little like I am camping here in my own house. Not quite the home it was but I have the required items to survive comfortably. Not quite home because I have discoverd a world well outside of what I had been living in for the last many years. Figuring out what really I want now that I have figured out what I do not want is a lifelong journey. Each day I do a little here to organize my life a little more and eliminate the junk that I collected over so many years before. It has become clear that for the most part, holding onto that piece of junk or the widgets just serves to slow a person down when they are attempting to move on in life and be nimble without having to manage said junk/widgets.
It feels good to eliminate stuff and clean out the closets and rooms. It gives me hope that at some point I could travel again or work abroad with less worries and live daily without the hassle of tripping over something I’m not using and may never use again. I spent a day cleaning up an old RV and afterwards realizing that I haven’t used it in a long time, I felt like it was just something that I will have to consider ridding myself eventually if it’s not used. It’s not a finacial drag but having it here is just one of those things that is something to manage. It also is my shelter in a time of emergency so for now, I’ll keep it…reluctantly.
Tomorrow is another day to scoop up and throw out or at the very least, organize with the newfound space of the scooped and tossed. Life has become one big cleanup operation from a self misguided past of living with to much junk and not enough quality everything else….that my friends is changing.
I hope you enjoy as I continue to write and if I am the only one….it’s ok too because I can always look back at where I have been and how far I have come. This year has been one of the best for learning for me…so far and I’m looking for ward to many more of these experiences.
Life is good.
Rowland Ramble - 