I am sentimental. Family says I’m too much so. I’m not sure I agree but I do think it can be easy to be capable of attaching too much sentimental memories to objects that take you back in time and allow you to relive the memory or event. For me it’s typically a sweet memory or time that something good happened in my life and some random object came into my life as a result of the event. Some people take pictures, some collect objects and some do both. For example, I have party beads from a friend and I haven’t spoken to her in at least a year and I even question if they really are my friend anymore anyway. BUT, handling those beads when I stumble across them in my collection of “memories” reminds me of when we were friends and spent time hanging out together. It triggers happy thoughts if even for just a split second. I have another couple of party bead sets from Las Vegas that I picked up when I went there for an event and while another friend didn’t have a direct part in my acquiring those goofy beads, she did help me arrange my tickets to get there and back and those beads trigger happy thoughts of when we used to be friends before we fell out of contact. It’s not about the objects but rather, it’s the memories. It’s having an ability to connect objects to memories that were important at some point in my life. The beads are just an example of of objects that have had important meanings attached to them. The idea of throwing away the object is easy, it’s the idea that once that object is gone, the trigger for the good memories goes with it if I don’t have it to remind me anymore. With the connections that are created between object and the good memory, it becomes painful to throw away what essentially is a good memory for no other reason than it’s taking up space. Throwing away some meaningless object is like throwing away a good memory when it’s got one attached to it. This is probably not as uncommon as one might think. How to let go?…that’s the big question.
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Today is my last day at work for the year. We are granted a couple of nice holidays off and I am enjoying them. It’s a beautiful day today and the sun is beaming. The lack of clouds this wintry day means it’s also quite chilly. I see steam coming off of one the local business rooftops along with the reflection of the sun. When you can see that much steam, it’s usually a sign that it’s quite cold out there. It’s the last workday for many and tomorrow is New Year’s eve. For me, this is a time for pause and recollection of what this life has been in the last year and to think about the changes both good and bad. Make some adjustments and keep moving along.
This year marks just over a full year of living in a new home. It’s been trying at times to figure out what is really needed and what I need to let go of. In the early writings here, I had written a lot about getting out of debt and the freedoms that way of living brings. These days its probably going to have more of a focus on shedding the trappings that this life often tricks us into carrying with us when we really don’t need them.
When I started writing, I knew that I was in for some personal growth and maturing. I had no idea just what that really meant and I’m sure there’s plenty more to learn. Sometimes, I forget where I started and how far I think I have come. That’s where this blog comes in. Someday, when I’m old and gray this site will fade, the links to it will become invalid and the memory of who I was on this planet will vaporize. However, while I’m still here, I can look back from time to time and also share what I’ve learned in order to help someone else who may be able to get something useful out of my ramblings here. I can at least offer that.
The end of an era really is about having found a new direction now that will be my next focus rather than ending the last point of focus. Now I am considering what it will take to become free of the junk that I have collected over the years both willingly and unwillingly then I can allow the useful and good things percolate to the surface. It’s about letting go of the things that I have stockpiled over the years that have no meaning, saved because…
I wrote about becoming debt free now I want to write about and become junk free.
Thank you for reading
-C
The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2015 annual report for this blog.
Here’s an excerpt:
A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 870 times in 2015. If it were a cable car, it would take about 15 trips to carry that many people.
Been seeing a recent bit of Facebook noise on tolls in the Seattle area. Seems the jackasses in Olympia are bent on charging commuters for using a road that has already been paid for with tax dollars. The idea is that if they can open up a lane or two for commuters to use by charging them a hiked toll rate, they have done some magical thing that addresses the cramped road problems in Western Washington. Somehow it alleviates the congestion of traffic by making the toll road appear to be opened and clear with the exception of a few stray patrons. There’s also talk of charging a tax per mile driven. We have some of the highest fuel taxes and sales taxes in the nation and these jerks can’t figure out how to use that money correctly and now they want more. It’s like they are completely disconnected from Joe public and have no interest in actually helping the situation. Instead they apply bad policy and flawed logic to an already defective system and then want to be re-elected for doing “something”.
I think that sometimes, it’s better to leave a defective system alone until you have properly analyzed it and HAVE A METHOD OF FALLBACK and proper miles stones to identify its success or failure. It’s as if they come up with some crap to try and wouldn’t admit it could be failing, even at gunpoint. They have this idea that they can tax their way into successful management strategies. These tolls are are more of penalty for using the road and ruining the perfect fallacy of more open roads that are magically now available when they somehow weren’t before.
The problem is that a majority of Washington voters are waterlogged-brained Sheep. They vote democrat no matter what because they are told too and it’s easy. They appear to ignore the real issues that are before the publicly voted into office officials. They don’t want real accountability from anyone and the parties that keep getting voted into office are playing the tune that this voting majority thinks they want to hear. I have learned that every condition can reach a point where you must decide if you want to accept the situation, fight it, or leave it.
I’ve tried for many years to accept it and it’s now getting too expensive to accept the situation with having to get from point “A” to “B” for work. The costs of commuting can now eat into living costs to a degree that it’s almost not worth living there anymore. Moving closer to work is even worse than living at a distance and commuting to work isn’t much better because housing prices are out of control. I know people even turn down jobs just because it would mean they would have to pay the tolls to get to work or sit in traffic for long hours every day. When will this stop or are we doomed to let this kind of taxation destroy us? Is it really worth living in a place that appears to be aggressively driving it’s citizens out of the state with ridiculous do nothing taxes?
It’s been a while now since we have had warm dry weather. Leaving home to go to work and coming home in the dark and rain is getting to be a bit much. Until recently, sleeping the early evening away felt like a reasonable option when I didn’t have a plan. Who really wants to be tromping around outside in the cold and wet weather anyway? Not me.

