An old saying but a true one. I’ve had some time to settle down a little since I have been back and I have come to the conclusion that living by that old saying is pretty healthy. It’s keeps us from thinking that “if only I just moved to…..blah blah place, life would be good because it sucks here”. The truth, there are some places that have less opportunity, but we have to start somewhere and right where you have been planted today is a good place to start. I left my current home a while ago, made some good progress in life and returned to the place where I left. Before I left, I had become indebted and had little in the way of hope for much more than dragging myself to work each and every day to pay for things I couldn’t afford in an attempt to make myself happy. I let the lure of having things I couldn’t afford blind me to the fact that even if I could afford them, it would be with a monthly payment on a schedule that left me with no room for emergencies or additional costs associated with the toys. What if I broke it? Better be extra careful and in my case, I became almost a nut about preserving the toy. It was to the point that I couldn’t even enjoy them. This has changed and while I still take care of the toys, I am not as obsessive about it as I once was.
Now I am a bit more content in blooming where I am planted but I also have adapted to not looking to toys to make up for living in a less then perfect location. That can only be addressed by finding the right location while still understanding that I am where I am and I can choose to enjoy it.
Rowland Ramble - 